With Love: A Benefit for the Lilith Fund

by Refresh Records

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I promised my body this would be the last time One of these days I won’t come out fine I’m starting to worry about what I’m earning I care for myself but I don’t think it’s working When I feel ok I don’t prepare Then when I get lost, there’s nothing there for me, oh there for me I forget the things that I begin I can’t believe I made it here again and again and again and again and again I’m breaking down like a change in the weather Though I can’t show it, I want to get better I’m not surprised that I don’t think of healing When I can’t describe the relief that I’m feeling When I feel ok I don’t prepare Then when I get lost, there’s nothing there for me, oh there for me I forget the things that I begin I can’t believe I made it here again and again and again and again and again
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Time (demo) 02:29
Go on Take responsibility You said that I’m not what you wanted me to be but it takes time Taking all my time You give it all that you’ve got but you waste your time on me. You waste your time on me You waste your time We’d give it another shot but you waste your time on me. You waste your time on me You waste your You tried as as could Think you should give me up Shutting my eyes as the door closes when you’re ready you should give me up. Heard you we’re happy than ever Found out from a friend of a friend But i’m selfish and a coward. You give it all that you’ve got but you waste your time on me. You waste your time on me You waste your time We’d give it another shot but you waste your time on me. You waste your time on me You waste your You tried as as could Think you should give me up Shutting my eyes as the door closes when you’re ready you should give me up. You said I put myself in this situation but I want more. But I want more
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High standards making my decisions come undone What do I deserve What have I earned is it what I yearn for Expectations shifting as I face things still unknown What if my visions cannot be outgrown How do I change before I’m set in stone
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12th Grade 04:42
Leather seats and rolled down windows, play that song that we all know. Scream it at the top of our lungs, those nights I’d felt my life had just begun. Staying out too late because we could, coming home to Mom because we should. We were young but damn we felt so old, unaware of all that was to unfold. When the weekdays felt like weekends, when I’d read everything between my bookends. Nowadays it seems I can’t keep pace, with the new additions on my shelf space. No I don’t wanna regress, no I don’t wanna regret all the things that I’ve done here. But god there sure are days, when I would give anything to go back to that year. Man we had it made, when we were in 12th grade.
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River (demo) 02:28
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pop filter off kilter beat maker wild kid likes the mild mid very funny and abrasive too that’s just what i aim to do that’s just what i aim to be beat give me the itis while i might’ve skipped the angel feet savor these, color changed iris flavor grease paul simon i’m in like time n tide a caper flee sacred lands, sacred greens, clapping tracks louder dude funny kid craves the scene with jack black as bowser too rev the engine wario on double wheeled appendage call a friend then watch em wave dash to save that evasive with the mind pen i calculate the lesson so i never clutch the vibe dead feathers touch the sky when im flowing with my double thumb schematic let the summer come its tragic but got fly threads and a story to refine with of you think it’s wordy just wait to u see my guys then… ruby yacht obviously big enough i could run from starboard to poop deck if u give me months feeling tough kinda like the energy i’m wielding very tired with the meek relaxant that i’m feeling so im trying to skirt that mario kart church track with clap back power very fuckin cool like im jack black as bowser
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At Home 01:15
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I have to pretend you don’t exist It’s nothing personal Because if you did I’d have To settle some issues I’ve been Sitting on, wishing on A fading star, hoping to find some Resolution so I’ll reach out Again and again, Stuck in circles, Pattern cycles, Repeat efforts, distance pressure, Imagined answers, it felt for a while that I was in one of those movies That we had listed out for later viewing Now I know your neighborhood is one I’m trying to avoid I’ll do my best to stay away Not for something that you said But I know me, I get antsy Thinking of potentials that Won’t ever come to be Thinking of potentials, well but honestly, it’s for the best I know I don’t want this if you can’t say fuck yes It’s just easier to play this trick I really don’t want to deal with this Til I get the hang of it, nothing personal but I’ll pretend you don’t exist
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Sara 02:32
Sara outsmokes the sky My hands graze the concrete I search for the words that feel right Decode the message, the space, and the heat Phinney never says goodbyes When he leaves the house for work You can see the look in his eyes When he holds up the pictures of her It haunts me The way it ends Unfurling, no consequences Jack, he took me by surprise After all the seasons of hurt Like a base, I'll steal this try The end's a portal to another world It's daunting I can't pretend Unfurling, no consequences I haven't seen, the things I dream About as much anymore
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There’s a certain kind of boredom out here That I really dread But I’m learning how to live With it Nighttime thinking keeps me moving Keeps me pushing, I don’t stall From my own judgement I just walk up the hill I am fluid, I am floating I am tethered, I am soaking But I’m just free enough To feel something that’s not it all I am flying on the outskirts And just barely reaching in To the barrel of my mind That’s brimming heavy with mist I see me for what I am Just a body made from chance Just a soul that gets too heavy Just a mind that can’t stay still If I wake up in the morning And the notes are somehow gone I’ll imagine it was just a dream There never was a song When I’m walking down the street in Fall The crisp air on my cheeks I’ll hear something rustle through the trees That feels like it’s for me It will be just out of grasp But the tease is all I need To know the dream was very real And the song lives on somewhere I am fluid, I am floating I am tethered, I am soaking But I’m just free enough To feel something that’s not it all I am flying on the outskirts And just barely reaching in To the barrel of my mind That’s brimming heavy with mist I see me for what I am Just a body made from chance Just a soul that gets too heavy Just a mind that can’t stay still I stop caring where the world is And where I am within that I’m a presence, I’m a visitor A conscience with a laugh
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i wanna make my father proud even though he let me down i know he could do better i know i could do better i don't wanna cry right now who taught you to yell so loud? is this what your love is? i'm not sure i want it CHORUS why can't you just be on my side? do you really need to win this time? why can't you read between the lines? i need your help, but just this time just this time just look at me go surviving my own i just wanna be okay find happiness along the way why is that so wrong? this path i'm on feels strong i know that you can believe you'll just have to wait and see CHORUS why can't you just be on my side? do you really need to win this time? why can't you read between the lines? i need your help, but just this time just this time why can't you why can't you see i need you both to believe why can't you why can't you see i need you both to believe in me i need you to believe in me can you still believe in me? i hope you still believe in me
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Bu Peni 02:31
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Wowee Zowee 02:06
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Get out of the race, kid. You’re fuckin wasted. All the dirt and sweat that you tasted. Was a waste of guts you created. Can we frame this rage? Set it out as distressed consolation? A blue ribbon at the end. A life free from self accusation. Put yourself in the ditch. Take a seat at the side of the action. Everyone’s ahead of your placement. Everyone’s so sick of the mayhem. Let’s interject: get off record find yourself speechless. Let’s intersect. Go faint go faint go faint go.
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All proceeds will go to the Lilith Fund, for reproductive equity. We encourage everyone to donate what you can through "Name Your Price" to help the Lilith Fund in their efforts as they fight for the rights of humankind in TX and beyond.

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released November 5, 2021

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